I never meant to stay away for so long, but hey, life is never straightforward and is always happy to throw me a few curveballs.
First of all, Dave was working in a crazy-demanding job which saw our routine with work and kids and childcare and house stuff go completely to pot. There were simply not enough hours in the day to complete everything. Needless to say, any spare time was spent catching up with stuff we didn't have time for; piles of washing, dishes, school notes, appointments...life was crazy.
Thankfully he has a new job now and so far (touch wood), it seems to be a much smoother ride.
There's a lot to be said for work/life balance.
While this was going on, we are also house hunting. We are hoping to buy our first house in the very near future, so I have been trying to use free minutes perusing house-buying sites, hoping to stumble upon something cheap and cheerful. Needless to say, it's a terrible time of year for it!
While scouring various domains, my poor wee laptop managed to pick up a few Malware gremlins. It took a long time to get rid of them - in fact I am still sorting stuff out after having to restore my computer back a few months...grumble.
Add on to this the other pressing gremlin we discovered one day a wee while ago...
|They always look very odd in the first photo - although, look! Tiny wee hand!|
Yes, check it out! Turns out there's a wee guy/gal hiding out inside of me!
I have been feeling horrendous these last couple of months - hence the lack of blog - but I have to say, I am feeling a lot better now, even more so after going to the hospital and actually seeing a real-life baby on the screen! Paranoid-me likes to imagine I was imagining it.
So, I missed a couple of things; my 30th birthday wasn't quite as intense as I'd planned, but the way I was feeling, that was okay by me! I had a really great meal with my family and had some really lovely gifts given and even delivered! I certainly feel very loved indeed.
I've had a great time keeping this a secret from real life people too. Some I told, knowing I'd need support as I felt so rubbish. Some I told accidentally. But others, as I have discovered this week when I told them, already knew. Apparently the bump which I didn't think I had much of gave me away. Ha!
I am going to be huge.
But hey - it's (most definitely) the last time I am going to be doing this and I am determined to enjoy every last second of it. Pregnancy hasn't been a positive experience for me, but now I am that bit older and wiser, I seem to have a different attitude towards it. Things are so very different from when we had the boys, it's kind of nice to just not worry quite so much.
We told the boys on the day we got the scan - they were both ecstatic. Tom really wants a sister. And you know, sod's law, Ethan really wants a brother. One is going to be sorely disappointed!
Bear with me - I might not be around so much in the next couple of weeks (although the sickness is fading and I'm getting some of my energy back - hurrah!) but I shall do my very best!